chin chin cheerio.

i've too many thoughts to write down in one go.

i wouldn't even know where to start, really.

my mind is racing - not that rad.
chin up meg!

i've been blowin' kisses one way.

recently i've been filling my time with the most magnificent things. perhaps i don't have a lot, but i've found the most beautiful something that somebody would ever want.

waking up to something real everyday has made me feel like a million dollars. i can't describe it in any other way, really.

to paint - oh, to paint! it feels incredible.

tonight i'm filling my night with things that make me feel alive - and to be alive is to be yourself and to discover yourself!

i love when the sky crashes and booms, but this morning i felt scared.. i won't lie. but to have had a hand to hold,was the most beautiful thing in the entire world. perhaps he was asleep, but i've not felt complete comfort like that in a long time.

i missed my family a lot today, but my sister felt that loving thought and found me for quite a long time tonight. jennifer is the person in my family that will accept me for no matter who i am or what i do... and i guess that's what family is all about, but my family has been in so many places in such a long amount of time of my life that i've never really got to connect with them like i do with jennifer. i mean, they're the most fantastic people in my world but it's hard to keep in touch, you know?

distractions can be a terrible thing sometimes...

point is, i'm incredibly happy about my life despite the bad.

this is life for me...

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

most people would be jealous.

hell, mary poppins is cool. i want to be her. 

blue eyes.

there's a pretty boy laying next to me and i couldn't be happier.

grandma! what big teeth you have! and so we sliced the wolf open and put rocks in his stomach.

thank goodness nic remembered to water pat, i was getting a little worried...

i pushed little people on swings for approximately 4 hours of my day today. i was absolutely wiped and felt like if i heard another "push me meg", i was going to snap in half. i took catherine out of the swing at the park and she hugged me with the most genuine little hug, told me she loved me and patted my back with her little hands. i no longer cared about how exhausted i was and felt so happy that i have such a wonderful niece.

catherine, although she's only three i've always had a special connection with since she was an infant. i mean, i love and care for all my nieces and nephews - but with catherine it's always been different. i've been told by my sister that catie and i are identical in a million ways, & that we were pretty well destined to be best friends.

i'm so joyous that i have her.

tonight was amazing. after putting andrew and catherine to sleep, i laid with ryan for an hour or so. i told him stories of the fairies where i lived, the warnings i'd get for going over the hill, and the proper fairy precautions to take before you decided to go into the woods. his wide brown eyes looked so intrigued. children's curiosity damn well kills me.

after a few drinks, i grabbed a blanket and laid in the park watching the stars & smoked a bunch of cigarettes one after the other.

the park doesn't exactly have street lights but i was feeling daring enough to venture to the beach to throw some rocks and listen to the water along the shore. sometimes i forget there's no wind in ontario (therefore, no waves to hear), but i curled up in my blanket there too and enjoyed a beer to myself.

i hear so many complaints that the world is a terrible place, that people are unhappy or angry at everything... i wish these people would just take the time to do something for themselves to feel at peace.
the world would be a better place.

i don't even really enjoy cage the elephant all that much, but i do enjoy this video and song quite a lot.

i'm going to pick flowers tomorrow.

no! you're a soup sandwich.

the past week or so has been a little hectic due to moving into a new place (which is actually just right next door), but it's quite cozy.

newfoundland was really refreshing for my heart and soul. it's beautiful to see a friend and feel like you just left yesterday. i also got to visit my very good friend in halifax, as well as my sister hilarie in toronto. she's my other half, and what a wonderful half i have.

my first day back i made a lovely porch living room complete with a beer fridge, couch, coffee table and chairs. the room mates and i shared beer and i went to a movie with a lovely guy.

this morning he rode his bike all the way to my house and spent the morning with me. he left me feeling quite overjoyed. i'm a girlfriend now... that's wild! i'm scared, happy, nervous, & butterfly-y. we're going swinging together really soon, i like that.

i can't wait to teach again. i feel like a part of me is missing when i don't have the joy of seeing lots of smiling children everyday.

now, to read, have a glass of wine, and watch black and white movies on mute. i'm hoping it'll make me sleepy and my belly feel better.

i'm happy today.

newfoundland.

it's days like today and yesterday that make me rethink living in ontario. i love the freedom of the mainland, but the scenery and culture here melts my heart. i'd marry this island if i could.

i sat on the floor with my triple whiskey and coke and my best friend by my side as our pals openly discussed with the audience that i knew what being a full time friend was, then proceeded to sing the happiest songs about loving each other and being together. i've not felt so loved in one place as i do here.

i laid in the middle of water street admiring the buildings which i find myself regularly doing at 3am most nights here. most friends aren't as enthusiastic about the idea though.

i spent the day wandering through the rain, drizzle, fog and slush. my feet were ready to fall off they were so cold and wet & i could barely see across the street of the cafe i sat at for so long this afternoon trying to kick the hangover. i missed the weather.

tomorrow there's a meat party for good friday and plenty of dancing to be had. i love my antichrist friends.

for the soul, here's a song.

to dreamland i go.

i just spent the last few hours in a city that i never thought i'd see again. there was a little hostility towards how i would grasp the city again but i'm really happy that i went. i got to see an old friend of mine of whom has helped me through some really rough periods of my life, but also helped make a lot of wonderful memories as well. you really know who a true friend is when without talking or seeing each other for years can pick up exactly where you left off. that's such a nice feeling.

we stopped at this wooden pier, and as i stepped out of the car i was hit with the fresh smell of the salty sea. it's funny how much i find myself missing the smell of salt. it's home to me, you know?

round the corner from her apartment is a place i would find myself quite often to see shows and meet the crazy local folks. i met a man who i labeled as 'denim dan' who talked quite a lot of nonsense but made a lot of sense to me at the time. i quickly realized when i got home that i had no idea what he was talking about, but i really liked how he talked with his hands so i was intrigued.

today i get to see my family & friends. i couldn't be more excited. running on roof tops and warfs, throwing rocks into the ocean, climbing the cliffs... oh how i've missed it.

i met a boy i like recently. quite an endearing friend so far it seems, and i like that. did i ever mention i'm a huge sucker for blue eyes?

i really like airplane letters.